So, back when I was in high school, I used to write a lot of poetry. Unfortunately, I don’t know what where much of it ended up. Lately, I’ve wanted to dabble in it again and tonight finally some of the words started to flow. I don’t know exactly where these particular words came from, but it isn’t the first time that has happened. I haven’t written in a long time, so here we are.
These are the things that I can never say to you.
The words that’ll finally tell you how I feel.
That what I feel isn’t just a passing whim but
That we could’ve been the real thing.
Real! All it takes is the scent of you.
A million feelings, a million thoughts all coming rush through a single breath.
Real. Yes, we were very real.
Whether you see it or not, we were real.
You chose the other way.
Broke my heart into a million pieces, it did.
Hearing that you still wanted me just caused those healing bits to fall apart.
The pain in my chest was very real.
I was trying to do the right thing.
It was the hardest choice I’ve ever made. Would I ever take it back?
Oh love, what a crazy, stupid thing.
Oh love, how very real mine is for you.
But I don’t know if I could take it back.
This is one time I can’t listen to my heart.
There are still beats for you.
But you made a different choice.
And that’s the reality for you.
So, slowly, eventually, I’ll move on from you.
Yes, one day I will.
Put those pieces back together,
And keep my heart away from you.
Maybe tucked away, there’ll still be
A spot in my heart for you.
But I have to close my eyes to it.
And pretend it isn’t real.